Sooo ... Alan Rickman died today.

I've watched he's work on the Harry Potter series since my birth, pretty much, cuz my mom is a HP Fanatic. I cannot expess words on how ... sad this loss is for any HP fan.

So I'm just gonna leave this picture that explains how I'm feeling right now

I only wanted to have fun
Learning to fly, learning to run
I let my heart decide the way
When I was young

Deep down I must have always known
That this would be inevitable
To earn my stripes I'd have to pay
And bear my soul

I know I'm not the only one
Who regrets the things they've done
Sometimes I just feel it's only me
Who can't stand the reflection that they see
I wish I could live a little more
Look up to the sky, not just the floor
I feel like my life is flashing by
And all I can do is watch and cry

I miss the air
I miss my friends
I miss my mother
I miss it when,
Life was a party to be thrown
But that was A Million Years Ago

When I walk around all of the streets
Where I grew up and found my feet
They can't look me in the eye
It's like they're scared of me
I try to think of things to say
Like a joke, or a memory
But they don't recognise me now,
in the light of day

I know I'm not the only one
Who regrets the things they've done
Sometimes I just feel it's only me
Who never bec