October 24, 2016

Tilt

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Tilt
It finally happened. Two days in a row of poor matches and generally poor gameplay by me finally did it.

I tilted. Serves me right for posting this one.

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Okay, so my tilt might be a bit different than yours. You might not even consider it tilting, really, when the only effect you see from me is a heavy sigh. But ask the inner me at the time of my last games (2 custom 3 v 3s w/ clanmates, happened after the Sol arena match), and SMITE was the last thing I wanted to play.

In the last 2 1/2 years since I've been playing, I don't think I've ever felt like that. I've always known I'm not the best SMITE player. I might have some amazing games here and there, but on the whole, I don't know if I'm being optimistic in considering myself an average player. And it's sad, because I've been a gamer pretty much my whole life. Grew up on consoles, starting with the Intellivision, and graduating through the various systems as they came out (NES, SNES, N64/Playstation, Gamecube, Wii/PS3). Played on PCs during the days of the 286 and up. Played some crazy Quake CTF matches, Counterstrike mod, Team Fortress mod, OG Starcraft, Diablo, Everquest, etc. Used to feel like a pretty badass gamer. Key word: used to.

But damn if I feel like I'm getting too old for this ****. I can't believe the level of gameplay today. I remember hearing something about how many hundreds of individual inputs a pro LoL player does per minute? WTF?!? I couldn't even dream of that level of coordination, and the ADD thought process that goes along with it. Are their brains able to handle anything but the most awkward of true social interactions?

In a way, it's nice that I was playing with mostly complete clan groups...my SF peeps are good peeps...Bullfrog, Zilb, Prism, GGF, Stuke, Taco, Ferrum...and they don't come down hard on me. I don't have a clan experience like this poor gal. That said, it starts going the opposite way, where I start feeling guilty, like I'm the sole reason my team is losing. This, of course, really makes me feel awful. I don't mind losing, myself, but when friends have to share in the experience, bleh.

And I mean, I don't know if I'm always the cause (I'm definitely on a woe-is-me kick). The Bacchus arena match, followed by the Freya ADC conquest match were 2 in a row where I actually did pretty well overall. Especially on the Freya one, we didn't have much chance...we were doing solidly until Prism DCd (and never came back). Fairly confident we would have won that one.

Oh well. So I didn't play last night...worked on my Bacchus and Freya guides instead. Yeah, still connected to SMITE, but what can I do? I just bought Westerado (Steam sale), so I might check that out tonight. Might finish up the modifications to the Freya guide. But who knows...might end up playing again, despite myself.

Thanks for listening to my rant.